Lately I've been reading in the book of Joshua and man have I just been blown away. All the fighting the battles the death and destruction. There is just so much war, but the thing that strikes me the most is that God commands then to do it. To completely destroy whole cities and burn them to the ground. To leave non alive including women and children. Thats just crazy.
God had a plan for the Isaelites. His plan was to give them the promised land. The land flowing with milk and honey, paradise if you will.

This is the way our lives are some times too. We fight with everything in us some days just to keep our heads above water. Fighting for our freedom, fighting for our hearts freedom. We are driven by a passion to be free because we were meant to be free. When God created Adam and Eve they were free. They had an intimate relationship with God. They walk and talked together. They spent time together and ate together and loved one another. Thats what we were meant to have with God. A relationship so close that we know every detail about God and HIm about us. Realness, friendship, love. We were meant for it in the purest of sences. God made us to have life and have it to the fullest.

Open up the walls around me. Wide enough so I can see the light. Wider yet to see the sky. Still wider till Your face I see. Open the walls of this heart of mine. The empty tomb of all my failings and short comings. I say open the walls, but in the same breathe I wish them closed again. For if those walls should open, my heart shall be exposed. So take the hammer and the nail, board up this heart of mine. Don't let those people in. For I don't know their thaughts of me. Alone and cold is this heart of mine. Lifeless in its tomb. My heart screams to be set free.
There is a hole, small in size. Yet the littlest speck of light shines through. My heart beats with new life. Like a man trapped in a cave it diggs. The light is stronger, it calls out to me. Be free from your tomb, be FREE! The walls have been broken, pain is no more. Praise be to the rescuer who sets the casptives free.

Ever Wonder Why Your Here?

Have you ever felt like life was taking you down the wrong path or you aren't doing anything with your life? I know I have. There are times when I have glimpeses of hope that I'm going the right way, but most of the time I have no earthly idea whats going on. Alot of times I feel like a loser because I can't get life right or that I'm to dumb to do anything, but I know diferently. My God has set in me the heart of a warrior and I know why I'm. I here to fight for Him in the greatest battle known on earth. The battle of winning souls, but now wait, because you have a part to play in this story too. It's not just my story, its our story, its the worlds story an we have to deside if we want to be in the story or not. I chose to be in the story. I chose to live the story and my life has never been the same. My life has been changed for the very best. Living for God is the only thing I want to do. And living in and being part of the big story is all I want to do. There is a quote I heard last night as my wife and I watched a movie. The movie is Five People You Meet In Heavan. I was a pretty awesome depicition of what heaven might be like. And through out the movie he keeps saying "I don't deserve to be here. Why am I here? I did nothing with me life. I was a nobody." And at the very end of the movie when he gets to his heaven and there are hundreds of people there smiling at him as he walk in, a voice comes out of no where and says " And the world is full of stories and the storie are all one." You see Edie (the main charater was a maintaince man at an amusment park and he was the one who check the rides everyday to make sure they were safe. Edie died saving a little girl who was going to be crushed be a falling car from a ride. Edie Maintaince (as they called him) kept people from ding all his life, and now that he's in heaven he knows thats the world is full of stories and those stories all run together to make one big story. Are you living the story?