Thursday, December 17, 2009

Fear and Facebook

For the last few months I have been dealing with this fear that seems to come over me whenever I see someone get in trouble at work. For some reason I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that they got in trouble because of me. I know it sounds absurd, but this is the feeling I get every time.

I was reading in the Psalms this morning and came across a psalm that really spoke to my heart today. I love how God uses the bible to speak directly to things that we are going through in our lives. It is Psalm 27: 1-3.

“The Lord is my light and my
Salvation -
whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my
life -
of whom shall I be afraid?
When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack
me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.”
(Psalm 27:1-3 NIV)

This week was a fairly trying week for me. Someone I work with was found to be using facebook at work in the owners office no less. Needless to say the owner came unglued. This young woman however was able to keep her job. The owner came and talked to me about this long before she confronted the situation with this young woman. When the owner started talking to me about it I got this feeling in my stomach like it was my fault and fear started to well up inside of me.

I knew that this was a lie from the evil one to bring my attitude down, and I resisted this feeling. I continually told myself that I had done nothing wrong and that it was not my fault. I found myself feeling bad for the young woman because I knew she could lose her job, but again I told myself that this was not my fault and that the young woman had made this choice on her own.

When this young woman was confronted about the use of facebook at work she immediately brought my name into the whole mess by saying that I use my cell phone to text at work which I do to communicate with my wife who is eight months pregnant.

All day yesterday I was feeling as though I was thrown under the bus for something that some else had done and until this morning I was feeling very down about the whole situation. However, God has seemed to step in and say that “you have done nothing wrong” and that He will protect me from the people who try to drag my name through the mud.

I simply need to remember that God is watching over me and through all of life He will protect me from my enemies and therefore I have no need to fear.