Lets all get crazy!

God has been doing some cool things in my life the last little while. I started the day today very down and just feeling tense. I had to be at work at noon so my day was already shot, but I just couldn't shake this feeling in my gut that I was all tied up. On my way to work I started praying and asked God what was going on in me. I told Him how felt like I was bound by something and I could get out of it. I asked Him to protect me through the day and to release me from whatever had me bound. As I started the day at work I still felt this feeling, but I was pushing ahead. Nothing was going to stop me from having the best day I could have. Lunch time came around and I was tired and hungry and not in a very good mood, but as I ate I relized that I was starting to feel like I was free. I was free to move and get loose and have fun. As I went back to work in a much better mood God simply said, "you have been free all along". I was alittle taken aback by this I mean, really, I was free this whole time. Why wasn't I having fun or being me this whole time then? God said, "because your trying to be someone your not, your trying to be perfect". I was shocked that God would say such a thing. I mean, I'm supposed to be perfect right? Well, not till I get to heaven. I was trying to live the perfect life, trying to make people think I was better than I really am. That I am some super-human who does nothing wrong. No wonder I could be free in worship at church, I was worried about what the people behind me were seeing when I was worshiping. I thaught they might think I looked stupid, or I didn't look cool enough for then. Well, forget this. I'm tired of trying to be perfect. I want to be me, not some freak does everything just the way everyone wants him to do it. I'm ready to break out of this shell and find new life in Christ Jesus. I'm here to let Jesus set me, the captive, free!