Confessions Of A Sinner

Some times the grace of God is overwhelming. It is amazing just like the songs say. Today I hooked up with a web site www.xxxchurch.com. This is the most amazing web-site I have seen in a long time. This church is taking on the pornography industry. On their web-site they have free downloads that you can get to keep you accountable while your online. I signed up for it, not only because I want to stay pure, but because I struggle with it. I've been trying to hide the fact that I struggle with it, but the reality is that if I don't tell someone I'll never beat it. My personal accountability partners are my pastor, and my wife. The reason I'm writing about this is not so I can tell everyone in the world that I have a problem, but so that I can let everyone know that there is help out there for them. You don't need to be afraid to let someone know, because chances are, they have struggled with it too. Writing about this really does scare the stuffing out of me because I'm a youth pastor and I love teaching, but the way I see it, I don't have a choice. I have to be open and honest about what is going on in my life. I know not everyone reads my blog, but it only takes one person to get someone fired or create a bad reputation. However, I know that this is the best way to start the healing process for me. I have fought with this for so long that I just want it to be over. No more lies no more silent tears at night. I want this gone and I want it gone now. I don't know much but I do know that God is saying to me, "keep going, keep getting it out", and I intend to. To quote The singer songwriter Chris Tomlin- "my chains are gone I've been set free. Christ my savior ransomed me and like a flood Your mercy flows unending love, amazing grace".