There are times in my life when I simply get really impatient. I get impatient at work, home, school, church, and even with my marriage. My wife and I are so great together. We love spending quality time together. If fact for the last few weeks we have been putting our favorite t.v. shows on hold just to spend time together reading. These are some of my most treasured times with Renee. We read and then we talk a little and then we talk some more.

However, there are times when I just want to scream, not because of Renee but because of things in life that aren't going according to my timeline. Renee and I want to have kids pretty bad. We have been "trying" for the last little while to get preggers and it just doesn't seem to work. I have told many people that I "simply do not want to be 50 years old and still have kids in the house". So I'm thinking we need to get started with this baby makin' thing before its too late. Well, it simply hasn't happen yet and we are starting to get frustrated. We both know that God has a plan and that His plans are always better than our own.

I find it so hard to wait on God sometimes. It seems that He just takes His good old time and leaves me to deal with the long wait, because after all, a thousand years is like one day to God.

It has been hitting me so hard lately that God wants us to believe. I am thinking about a passage in the bible that says, "I do believe, but help me in my unbelief". That is so good. I do believe that Renee and I will have children some day, but God help me in my unbelief.