Who Am I, Really?

I as I am working today I keep thinking about my life and how I got to be who I am today. I’m not talking about the general stuff we think of when we think about who we are, but rather how I became who I really, truly, am.

I was talking to another worship leader at church the other week and I told her that I like to watch other worship leader in action so that I can lead worship the way they do. However, after thinking about this for a good while today I realized that before I started doing this watching thing I learned how to lead on my own. There were people who help me somewhat along the way, but for the most part I learned how to lead worship on my own.

After considering this matter even further I discovered that I in my own strength did not teach myself anything, but rather it was a divine teacher that taught me what I know. However, beyond simply the outward things I turned to looking inward to ask myself “who am I and how did I become who I am today”? I know that our experiences shape us into how we are, but it seems that there has to be more.

I taught myself how to play guitar, but who gave me the desire to learn? I taught myself how to play the drums, but who taught me how to keep a beat?

I am not sure that there are easy answers to these questions as some may think. Most people would say that your life experience has taught you how to do most of these things, but I’m not so sure.

I may never truly know how I learned all the things that I know and can do, but I do know that our Creator has imparted may things on us that we could never learn on our own.

So it could be simply boiled down to human nature and this is the way things are or it could be more than that. I don’t have all the answers to the mysteries of life. love and happiness, but I do know that no matter what, I am His.